Gods way

sometimes in life god shows a way and we plan that way but then god has another plan we didnt know about. Found out last week I was 4 months pregnant with a baby girl. I was scared and ones the shock was over I was so excited and i was telling everyone i could think of. We had a name picked out Madaline Nicole Johnstun. We had clothes for her, photos of her. And feeling her move and dance inside of me was a miracle. Then today i was feeling very weird and felt like i should go get checked out and i found out we lost our baby girl. It has been so hard and i haven't felt like doing anything but crawling out of my skin and run and hide under a rock and wish no one was around. All I want to do it be alone and have everyone dissapear.