horrible night

ever had a dream that scared you so bad you woke up in tears and swet? That was me last night. scared of what my dream was. scared to see if it was actually true or not and just the not knowing factor. When i woke up it seemed so real to me that it made me scared more, and it still feels so real that its hard to get out of my head. i have never been so hurt in a dream before and it crushed me.

I at least know its not real so i can get a little peace from that but the thoughts of what happend will haunt me all day.

i love josh so much and the thought of him leaving me hurts