changes.

some times in life we have changes that either change us for good or bad, but how do you know what it will do. I thought this was a blessing i thought i was looking forward to this but now all i can do is look back on life a realize how many things i cant do or get to miss out on. Why am i the only one who has to struggle so bad. I am giving up my dreams and everything else i have wanted to do in life thinking it was for the best but now im not so sure whats best.
Why do i push away the people i love? Why do i do things to ruin my life?
Im tired of hurting people and im tired of worrying about the people i have hurt or the dreams that never go away.
Today has been a horrible day stayed home and sat on my ass all day feeling sick and then tonight i hurt my finger while trying to sleep and its making it really hard to type and im just getting frusterated so im done typing.